True, live a distance far enough you can't afford to go see someone who loves you so much, and always being around people who don't much seem to care, man, it will take toll on your mind! I'll never be the same.
I live by this. Wallow in your sorrows for one 24 hour period. Cry. Lay around in your comfy clothes. Watch junk TV. Eat junk food. Sleep. Then the next morning start taking steps to dig out of that dark place. Take a shower. Eat right. Exercise. Do something to move forward. It's ok to break down but it isn't ok to stay that way.
Its difficult when people distance themselves from you because of how you act, because of something you may have said, because you may be exhausting to them. What's worse is that they don't tell you why - they just smile from across the room or say a passing hi if you happen to be in the vicinity. I'm exhausted too, my mind actions and words are too much for me and I want it all to end. I didn't choose this illness - the rollercoaster ride I'm chained to for live. I'm doing my best.