Out of God's will is to step into a very dangerous place-Eternity is FOREVER! God gave us His Commandments, His Church, His Teachings to live by--there's too much documented evidence to try to dispute the FACTS!
Great quote from CS Lewis! "Life with God is not immunity from difficulties, but peace in difficulties. :) " God can give us peace even when trouble seems to find us.
Courage and honesty...
Some good ways to learn this: look at the Crucifix. Look at how vulnerable Jesus was on the Cross. Also, go to Confession: not only is that being vulnerable, it's learning to get used to being vulnerable.
You can't go back and change the beginning, but you cant start where you are and change the ending. -CS Lewis