Each of us have our own specific triggers. We may not even be aware of the buried painful memory, but go into a panic attack for some "unknown" reason. To be healed, I had to force myself to face my hidden terrors. It's not as scary as you think it is.
When we are truly working an honest program of recovery.the promises are real! "No more shame, be proud of who you are."There is nothing to be ashamed of any longer. The internal moral compass becomes balanced. We no longer hurt ourselves or others.