In my darkest hour I laid on my bed and I prayed. I asked for protection and to give me the strength to remove someone from my life. One day everything changed and I was safe. This is why I chose to go back to God. He protected me and showed me the way.
I have learned the flip turn in a day, I have learned the butterfly rhythm, the breast stroke and everything about it, I have put everything I have in learning more and more, and now I will swim the 500 and make the team even if I feel like I can't go on!
If your mistakes are not a surprise to him, then your life is predestined. If your life is predestined, then you do not have free will and he has destined you to be a fuck-up, for which he will make you burn in hell for the mistakes he caused you to do.