It hurts, no one can understand how you really feel. We hide our pain, put on a brace face and carry on. Being strong is hard especially for long periods of time, coping on your own. I feel the pain of others, I really do.
I miss the girl that made everyone happy and didn't self-harm, wasn't suicidal. I miss the girl that had tons of friends. I miss the girl that didn't need cheering up because she was always happy. I miss the girl who used to be me.
How I feel today. Treading water right now. Every morning is a struggle, every day I try to convince myself its going to be better. Here I am, stressed out, mentally done with this. My stomach hurts so much. Im just sad today.